some goodbyes

i've been too busy and too exhausted to talk to you. but i figured i'd get some writing done as i don't want to tell my stories a bazillion times (like 3. or maybe 4 in reality)

bullet point about my roommate's house. it had a contract signed in about 24 hours. yeah being done with showing the house. hated it.

i don't think i have an update on my move, etc. i have a new address but i figure i'll wait to email it you at a more appropriate time. otherwise, i expect i'll get emails after i moved..."i lost your new address. would you send it again?" let's agree to avoid that because right now just about everything in my life irks me.

but's not why i'm writing today. lemme get to it.

there are two men here that i am going to miss. one that could look at me and i would glaze over. the other i could look at him and holy cats what a body. seriously.

number one and i dated on and off for two years and kept in contact for a third. he is a confederate flag waver red neck. he tolerates homosexuality and non-white races. meaning, he can work with them and maybe 'friend' them some but no way would his child ever be accepted if he was homosexual or he brought home a non-white girlfriend. he proudly states he is a bible reading man but i've seen him cheat people out of money and not keep his promises. oxy - moron. but he's my real life toby keith. i'm telling you if he called me and then gave me that 'look' i would be mentally disabled. for, um, maybe about 2 or 3 months when he did his next douchy thing.

number two. again, let me remind you, the most gorgeous body i have personally seen. we had (have) this great chemistry. he's smart. he built his first home from the ground up. super handy man (just like my dad. remember how i told you all men don't come with that handy man gene?) - funny, great shoulder to cry on. he was my 'male' sounding board during those first few hard years. good enough friend to not sugar coat things like when he told me to pull my head out of my butt (not exactly his words). but he belongs to someone else.

the other off and on men have taught me things that i will be forever grateful for. get your mind out of the gutter, perv. i was beautiful. sexy. smart. those things so long forgotten.

i'll see you when i see you.