drink deeply

i had a few moments this week where i thought, "oh, that would make an excellent blog post". but as you see it has almost been a week since i puttered my thoughts into the internet universe.

today brooke and i leave for the annual thanksgiving holiday which will include seeing meredith, arielius and a few other family members. i cannot help thinking that it will be one year ago that we had our last "family" holiday meal together before richard truly jumped ship.

expecting that it will take a few years before certain dates come and go and i won't be remembering something about them.

i had two m@tch dates this weekend. one was a repeat and one was new. i will say; however, that repeat m@tch will never have the opportunity to see me again. he made a major blunder of a mistake that one just can't recover from.

new m@tch date was nice. i'm finding that i need to know someone who is smart and reads. i should put it on my prerequisites. i just lived too long with someone where i did not have mental stimulating conversations and now i realize that i really enjoy this part of a relationship.

speaking of, blue eyes and i still text and talk on the phone. i am very drawn to this man. i wish he didn't live so far away.

i'm revisiting the thoughts put forth in the book "radical forgiveness".  oh, and i watched eat, pray, love yesterday. now, let me just say i could not have watched that movie a year ago. and i clearly knew this. but i was ready and it allowed me to play in the shallow end of my thoughts.

enjoy life. find even however small it may be... enjoy it. forgive. forgive myself. forgive others. gratitude.

i have much to be grateful  for. i absolutely adore where i live. it breathes me. i love coming home. i love my job and the opportunity it gives me. and, most of all my children. they are the best thing i have ever done. my dream has come true. except for a year or so ago brooke and i are close. man, i love that girl.

i challenge you to find something to be thankful for each day this week. it's my goal. to breath it in deeply and hold lightly.

dance on people.