Well, that was the last day at work.
Pretty uneventful and the going away party was pretty much what I expected.
Some of you know that I have struggled for the last year and a half at my job. Power plays, salaries that were frozen...the list goes on.
Again, I find myself at the end of a relationship looking back and wondering if there was something else I could have done to make it better. I have had abandonment issues and at moments like these I find it challenging to accept that I did do my best and where cracks of fault are that they don't belong 100% to me.
I no longer need to look back over every moment of my life to pull apart the pieces of how, why, what, where. I do, however, believe that my journey will give me more opportunities to practice viewing these events in their true perspective of all the pieces versus extreme black and white.
Closing the door. 12.07.2010-04.22.2016
Trust me on this one, we all have areas where we can improve relationships -- on our side. However, the 'cracks' there were not created by you. And, I would be willing to bet a large sum of cash, anyone else fitting into your WAY HARD to fill shoes (cuz you are awesome), will have a difficult time there too. You now have a God given, open door to walk into a new life filled with the wonder of little feet soon to be here; blessed by the surroundings of those who love you beyond compare. Let that love sink in, breath deeply the door you are walking into...fresh start with you allowing God to open the way. Love you...Enjoy this beautiful day!!!!
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