Update

if you are stopping by for an update...I've had some hard days.

There is a physical battle and a mental battle. Seeing as I am a black and white person with a touch of pessimism that means some days this feels like I will ALWAYS be this exhausted, in this much pain, and be this loney. Those are bleak days my friends.

I have new clothes now. They are loose, large and baggy. It helps not to have fabric up against my sites. And, they are nice clothes. But I'm a big floppy square now. Oo. Oo. Sexxxseeeee. Not.

I also feel old.  For those who have known me for a long time I have never felt or looked my age. Maybe I don't look my age but honey, I feel old.

And right now the saying, "get busy living or get busy dying" feels so true. So many things I want to do....but I sit here in a puddle of exhaustion.

Spiritually I feel solid. It has never once crossed my mind to say why me? There have been so much grace and mercy poured over me.  This is scary to say, but by the strength and power of the Holy Spirit I may sit in a pile of ashes scrapping my sores and want to die but I will not curse my God.

Thank you for your prayers, cards, emails, texts. Please don't stop. I'm not done yet and some days I can barely make it through.

Peace, Grace and mercy upon you, my peeps.