no more no more no more...

wow. what a weekend.

saturday was pretty awesome. i felt good. got several things done. took several mini naps and went to my friend's engagement party.

mmmm. i keep forgetting that doing lots on a 'feel good' day means you will pay for the next two days. at least.

i was just so excited to feel good and get so many things done.

i slept all day sunday. except to go meet with my burn peer. but, really, except for those few hours i slept all day sunday. and had no problem sleeping sunday night.

i wish i could be at home sleeping right now. today is a work day tho. trying to sit as still as possible and do my job. (i did such a good job at sitting still my auto light monitor shut off because it thought i left the office).

this morning i had a follow up appt with my burn nurse. again, everything i am experiencing is 'normal'.  and i cried today. because of this:

you can't see it very well but it's starting to lighten in color. mostly at the top. not only is it lightening there are parts that feel like normal skin. not sensitive to touch. that's when my nurse told me. this site, because of the type of graft they did - will heal completely to normal skin. i'll probably have a rectangular outline and if i keep it out of the sun it will fade. 

i cried. for some reason i thought i would always be dealing with some sort of level of pain here. as i will with my burn site. and to suddenly know that some part of the pain will go away. big relief. 

i had my pain meds refilled and i'm starting a new med for my nerves. to calm the ones that are growing back. speaking of nerves, one thing i'm experiencing is the fluctuation of my body temperature. one moment sweating and then then next chilled because my sweat has been exposed to cooler air. i bundle up a lot. pjs, socks, robe, under the covers to get warm. i brought this up to the nurse and she said (again) that's normal and the reason i try to stay extra warm all the time is that the nerves hate cold and are more painful when i'm cold. i'm going to be like a floridian and grab for my down jacket at 60 degrees.  

friday is a stock exchange holiday. i'm looking forward to an extra day off.

peace y'all.