Pearls

I have ...I see a counselor. Well I don't actually "see" her as we talk. Ever since December 2010 when I started working a real Monday through Friday job we have phone appointments. You'd be amazed what you can accomplish over the phone.

We have similar backgrounds. Although her marriage recovered from intense adultery and mine did not. That's okay. They were separated for three years and she is slightly handicapped my her diminished eyesight.

I've learned life skills. And it no longer bothers me to have to pull them out of the tool bag and use them. I no longer think of it as a set back or failure. It is what it is. And this is what you do to go through it even if its one nail shredding gasping moment at a time.

Today I experienced rejection. Rejection of what I was experiencing. A part of what I've come to accept as me. To be unseen is bad. To be seen and be told to change? I think that's worse.

So again I remember that one does not throw their pearls before swine and expect any other outcome. Of course this person is not swine. But I have value and am priceless. I need to remember not to step out in front of a car and not expect to be hit.

That's one of life skills. Don't put what is priceless before someone who will never see its worth.

Dance on people.