that was worth it

well i cried a lot yesterday. dude. i'm just tired of the sad and losses.

the only thing i know is that it is not here to stay but this too shall pass.

have you ever been in sitch when someone says that to you and all you really want to do is smack them? yes, i know.

but, it's okay when the person IN the sitch says it.

i try to watch at least one ted talk a day. so interesting. any.e.way. there is this ted talk on the happiness project, which i do believe annie mentioned on her blog, annieology dot com, and it got me to thinkin.

so i poked around on amazon and found this book to read

its a very short book. in fact the author has been accused of printing a book when it first was just blog entries. what.ever. short concise, to the point, who cares. 

i do have a point and i will get to it. promise.

so, i have discussed with you before that i do not have a great storage of self worth. and when someone, speaking from self experience, doesn't have a high level of self worth then there are these really mean voices in your head (not like THAT!) they say the meanest things.

here - 

yeah, "you're so mean when you talk about yourself, you were wrong, change the voices in your head, make them like you instead..."

at least i know i'm not the only one who has mean voices. back to the book. it's not a blame who or how you got here with low self esteem. it's just one principle. love yourself.

of course, you need to read the book to complete the idea because i'm not here to repeat the man and really the book is not that expensive.

AND, let me just that he's not a christian. pfffft. who cares. well, okay, we SHOULD care about his eternal soul. but that's not what i mean. what i mean is God's truth is out there in the world and it speaks from many sources. hey, a donkey spoke once.

the sub point i have is God loved me so much that he gave his only begotten son for me. which means, dude, if he loves me that much don't you think i should love me that much? AND, how does one love their neighbor as themselves if THEY HATE THEMSELVES? mercy, i am long winded today.

my real point, final point, getting around to it point is this. i've been practicing the man's concept of loving myself and breaking the loop of bad voices. therein has given me the ability to be sad and mourn my losses but still make life choices to ease the pain. instead of the old coping mechanisms which are not so healthy.

so i may be tired and weary of being sad but it's okay. i'm taking care of myself and this too shall pass.

dance on people.