well shut my pie hole

today i was looking for a specific email and ran across THIS email i sent to richard. he walked out sept 19, 2010. i found out 'officially' about the affair feb 2011. 

Date: Mon, Nov 23, 2009 at 10:13 PM
Subject: icing on the cake of crappy day
To: richard


richard

i'm sure we won't talk before you leave for work - but let me show you something from my side. a little picture.

let's say you'd just spent several weeks having some really hard discussions with me and really weren't feeling too secure in who i was with you. in our relationship. and you'd just spent a few months dealing with some real stressful stuff and wondering why i've been distant and withdrawn at times. add in a few times where i haven't answered my phone or called you. i visit your job and your co worker makes some off the wall crack that i've been missing from work a few hours here and there. then let's just final it off with hearing my phone ring and some unknown number comes up - and hey, there' s a voice mail. some guy's voice saying, hey baby i'm getting into town today, let's hook up at 3 and i love you.


now i'm sure that i could probably give you a logical answer to each and everyone of those instances. but i don't give you the answers. i don't reassure you that some yahoo has the wrong phone number? just leave you to figure it all out on your own.  

how would you feel?

dancer

(i have no words right now. i just needed to show someone. to say something. peace out people.)