here's the deal. for 25 years i became self absorbed into someone else. so much that when richard walked out i never thought i would have a life. i didn't know who i was or what i wanted.
this thing with cowboy literally deters me from becoming absorbed. at all. he can work hours on end with only a few minutes of sleep. the job requires it and he's used to it. now he's in no man's land and i may not hear from him for days.
as much as i would like to think i'm the first thing he thinks of when he's done with the job - i'm sure food, sleep and his son are higher on the priority list.
ergo. it is what it is.
and i get to practice being a healthy me.
so i signed up for a dance class this weekend. one of the things on my bucket list. and i continue to study for my test. not particularly on my bucket list but it's worth a promotion so best keep at it.
the gym and i are becoming familiar friends again.
on two bummer notes. my next door neighbor is moving. i'm very happy for her because she's been hating life in her current job. but she's been a great neighbor and i will miss harley and chopper.
lastly, my mum has to say goodbye to a friend today. pets take our hearts, keep us company, cuddle when we cry, sleep under the covers...but saying goodbye hurts so much.
peace to you mum.
dance on people.
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