perspective

i am sick sick sick.

oy vey. i don't remember having anything like this in a long time.

being flat on my back for two days has given me some time to think. some perspective let's say. right before becoming sick i found out a friend lied to me.

when i found the lie it's like the heavens themselves broke apart and i could truly see this person for what they were. and me in it as well.

i'm sad. and also scared.

this friendship blocked apart of my growth. it numbed some of the pain of the breakup of my marriage. and now i have it back.

i know there is a cosmic plan in all this. and today i've cried much over grace and mercy.

why do i have to be so stubborn?

dance on people.