7/21/2015

i don't know how long i'll keep this open. i still like the idea of going dark - and then releasing several blog posts at one time. last time, however, i did not write much. out of sight out of mind i guess.

i had a sleep study last night. my third one. i think it went well. my machine broke sometime in the last 6 months and when i tried to replace it through my medical insurance..i did not have a valid diagnosis to get a new one. my first sleep study i was 'sorta' diagnose with sleep apnea. my second sleep study the sleep apnea was removed and i was diagnosed with restless leg. ergo, i can't order a new machine. i looked at buying one...hahaha...

my doctor decided that i could go through another study and she promised me that if there was anything she could document then she would approve a machine.

i was an emotional wreck last night. i do not know why. i felt sooooooo alone. rationally it is not even considered a procedure and i had already experienced two other ones. but emotions are not rational.

i slept really well. considering all. she woke me up around 2am to put a cpap on me. oh, and guess what new little thing i have to deal with? a shy bladder. i mean SHY. it took me forever to pee last night at 2am.

i woke up my normal time and of course the nurse is not suppose to tell me anything. she did say, "we got some really good data". was there a wink wink there? that's my hunch i also told her that dreamt. she said that was always a good thing. two weeks for the results.

that means grace has to put up with my snoring. yes, grace is coming to visit.

i woke up HOSTILE at my ex. like, wth did that come from. he was in one of my dreams. playing tennis. hi. i'm still a tennis widow. even IN MY DREAMS. oh. irked.

a week tired.

peace out.