i've never ridden in an ambulance before. guess i can cross that off of my bucket list. btw, in case you were wondering or are new here..both my roommate and i are heterosexual. so the whole 'hey, are you guys together? winkwink...it's getting old.
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i will never get a post written these days if i'm waiting for a complete thought or a time line that is proper. so i've decided you just might get disjointed paragraphs that will mean something sometime.
today was the first day i changed my bandages all by myself. it took me 1 1/2 hours. i am gaining mobility. walking around, stuff like that. i'm not allowed to drive until i'm not taking narcotics. that's considered dui territory right there.
tomorrow is monday. work day at home day..
i've been noticing that people are acting different these days. probably because this all seems surreal to me. however, for other people, the idea that i was really close to a very real life altering event, that seems to be hitting home.
one person mentioned 'brave.'
brave? me? the only way i see that is taking the risk and being vulnerable to people. asking for help. willing to let people help me. let them see me not perfect but weak, tired and sometimes really funny. (i sent a photo of one of the burn sites to a friend that included part of one of the girls - - with the comment "hey, i totally see a dancing bear in a dress. do you see it?" um. no. weirdo. at least i wasn't claiming that the virgin mary was there. immediate fast lane express to the front of the national enquirer. )
i want a cigarette.
more ridiculousness later.
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