the sagas of divorce

okay, it's probably hormonal.

but i've also found that it's a good time to be introspective.

so yesterday i had dinner with long time friend who used to work at said job with me. we had three months of chatting to catch up on.

in which the subject of richard, homewrecker and graduation came up. said friend has experienced my situation but from the other side. her father left her mom after 25 years of marriage and then ended up marrying a woman (term used loosely) who was only 8 years older than friend.

homewrecker is only 5 years older than steve. 8 years older than brooke.

this is so jacked but it is what it is.

anyway...it got all muckety muck in my feelings.

and here's the kicker. i was raised in "that age" when having a man in your life was very important. so regardless of how well i have come back, picked myself up, worked my ass off at my new job with a promotion/raise  - have my own apartment -

damnit. i ain't got no man on my arm and ring on my finger.

let's just say that my generation grew up with some messed up thinking.

oh. and maybe tomorrow i'll tell you about brooke's perception of homewrecker. or maybe i won't.

we shall see.

oh. i didn't tell you the outcome of the court thingey. richard was found in contempt of court and has one year to sell or refinance the house to clear the contempt. and he had to pay 1/2 my attorney fees. maybe now he'll think court orders are a little more serious than he thought.

or. i'll be in court again in a year.

dance on people.