disco is back

well well. ranger set dinner plans then cancelled. he's here tdy and his boss called a meeting. or so he says. either way...meh. i can't get worked up over guys these days.

plan b was country dancing. work mate went with and we danced til 1, ate breakfast and she slept over. i woke up at 11am. what am i, 21?

today includes catching up with friend and going to the movies. and i still have one day of vacay left after this.

i'd like to do something exciting.

oh. almost ran into ex twice yesterday. eerie. and i'm not a fan of accidentally running into ex. still don't trust my emotional self in that sitch.

i wonder what people in small towns do when they get divorced? i so could not handle that.

monday will include starting new good habits. i miss running.

never in a million years would i have put money down that i would say that.

oh., also realized between 2 and 3 am while i was trying to fall asleep. i have survived.

i have survived the greatest thing i feared. it came upon me and i'm still here on the other side. i thought i would die if it ever happened. i thought i would die while i was going through it. but i didn't. here i am. close to one year of it being official. 17 months of it being physical.

i'm not quite ready to sing with gloria gaynor but i am here.

although, hey, that reminds me i want to go roller skating.

roll on people.